Sam Frost has spoken for the first time about dealing with depression, saying she spent several months in a ‘dark, horrible place’.
Concerns for Sam were first raised when she sent a worrying tweet to her followers, saying: "To the fake accounts heavily trolling me online & into my personal life. If you wanted to break me.. Congratulations you have won. #broken".
To the fake accounts heavily trolling me online & into my personal life. If you wanted to break me.. Congratulations you have won. #broken ??— Sam Frost (@Sam_Frost) July 4, 2016
In response, Sam received a number of supportive tweets from fellow celebrities and the public, but says she struggled to stay positive.
Choking back tears, the radio host opened up further about the concerning tweet, opening up to her 2DayFM co-host Rove McManus.
"When I started this job, I'd been dealing a lot with the previous two years," she said. "It was emotionally and mentally exhausting. And then I started this job – and I love my job – but I copped a really hard time. And everyone was so critical, and the media was critical, and trolls were just horrendous and I was just getting so heavily trolled, and other elements to it that I don't even want to mention,” she said.
The 27-year-old has been under pressure from the media ever since she appeared onThe Bachelor in 2014. Since then, she has been the target of body shaming, teasing and relentless taunts on social media.
Sam stressed the reason she was sharing her story was because she felt it was important for people who are also going through a tough time.
"It got to a point for about three or four months that I would come to work, and go home. I wouldn't even what to leave my house, I was so in an awful place, I was in a really really dark place. I'd shut my friends out, I'd shut my family out. I'd come to work, and go home, and I'd stay shut in that dark horrible place."
Sam says her breaking point came when her partner Sasha Mielczarek said he didn’t know what to do anymore, because all she did was cry.
“Sash said, ‘Sam, I don’t know what to do anymore, because all you do is cry, and you’re not talking to me.’ And I said to him, ‘I don’t want to be here anymore. I don’t want to wake up every day anymore’. It wasn’t until I said that out loud, because I’d just been bottling it all in,” she said.
“I saw the helplessness in his face and realised, it’s not fair for me to want to give up. I just had to find the strength … With my supportive boyfriend and my beautiful friends, I realised my worth. I’m worthy of a great job, I’m worthy of a great boyfriend. I just want to be the best version of me I possibly can.”
This stark realisation prompted Sam to seek professional help and reached out for support from her friends and family.
While Sam was working forward through her mental health issues and spending time finding her self-worth, she and Sasha took a two week break to Bali, where she says she was in a good place.
That was until she saw that social media trolls were once again targeting her, creating fake accounts to harass her loved ones and spread lies about her.
The horrible social media comments once again sent Sam into a bad place, prompting the tweet.
"It just all fell heavily on me again," she said. "I've worked so hard to get away from that dark place, [but] these trolls are relentless, they won't stop."
Rove stepped in to support Sam, saying that he was concerned because her last tweet was similar to that of Charlotte Dawson before she committed suicide in 2014.
"I know you feel the pressures of this job, and I think you get a lot of unnecessary scrutiny for who you are and what you do, and not enough praise for how well you're doing it," he said. "I adore you, and I'm so glad you're here."
Sam finished by encouraging all those also going through a tough time to seek help, saying:
"I can guarantee you the best thing I ever did was I admitted to myself and a loved one that I'm actually not okay."