Jessica Mauboy has opened up about her no-show at the Emirates Melbourne Cup, saying she suffered a panic attack.
In a recent interview, Jessica Mauboy revealed that there was a lot of “bickering” backstage at the Melbourne Cup and that it completely threw her off, making her feel “suffocated” and “devastated”.
“Four minutes before I am about to be walked out from the green room, people on one side are bickering with people on another side and it started to suffocate me, it was crazy and I didn’t know what to do.
“All I could feel was all the bad energy coming from people, time stopped and I could see it all going on around me, I could see me stuck on the lounge and I’m thinking ‘why aren’t you getting up and going?’ It was really horrible.” She reveals.
She also remembers someone “yelling about shoes,” alluding to previous rumours that the cancelation was a result of her shoes not matching the retail sponsors dresscode.
Such a proud moment that I'll never EVER Forget. Singing my heart out at the #NRL #GrandFinal2015 and standing beside my team @nqcowboys was truly The ultimate dream and fairytale ending. To top it I Loved wearing my Farage suit inspired by the burnt reds and orange colours from the outback!!!! @farageaustralia ????????
“I know how to do the big gigs. I’ve done Eurovision, sung in front of Oprah, sung in front of Obama and sang the national anthem at the NRL Grand Final just a few weeks ago… but I didn’t have a moment to refocus and pull myself back together and I am still in shock that it happened.”
Jessica has reportedly decided to see a counsellor to prevent future anxiety and panic attacks.
“I love what I do so I was devastated, disappointed with myself that I couldn’t find the courage to refocus with everything going on around me. I would never intentionally let anyone down.”
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